eh

eh You don't know me at all. You don't know the first thing about me. You don't know where I'm writing this from. You don't know what I look like. You have no power over me.

So I don’t really understand what’s wrong with me. On occasion I’ll have these memories of some of the best nights of my life surface. I shared these moments with someone I really loved. I don’t understand how these feelings just went away? I don’t understand why they just stopped. I really wish it wasn’t like this but i don’t know how to fix me? I don’t understand why my brain won’t let me be in a relationship without either self sabotaging it or just turning me off to the entire thing. I just don’t get how all my feelings could vanish.

I’m not okay.

My arm is swollen and this really hurts :(

My arm is swollen and this really hurts :(

I want to return to nature. I want to melt into the sand on a beach or become a cloud or a tree. I just want to die and return to nature. I want to go back to the beginning. It’s all I can think about. There’s no room for anything else. Maybe that’s why I feel this empty? I know it sounds silly but nature is just so beautiful and I want to be beautiful too and give back to what we’ve destroyed. I’m too young to be this sad. And I can’t do anything about it. I’ve backed myself into a corner. But maybe this was the way it was always meant to be?

I’m just so tired of trying there’s seriously no point.

It’s weird. When you feel like you’re at the bottom. Your worst and you feel like you can’t get any worse and then the universe surprises you and drops you down a few more notches.

I really just want to die

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orangemarkerstuff:

Marching along, like a good soldier does
I’m setting sail, with anchors holding me down
Pack up my bags, stow them away
I’m bidding farewell to all that is safe

Withering away, a shrinking violet dies
So full of life, these lights they’ve dried me out
Into the sea, I needed a drink
I never…

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