So I don’t really understand what’s wrong with me. On occasion I’ll have these memories of some of the best nights of my life surface. I shared these moments with someone I really loved. I don’t understand how these feelings just went away? I don’t understand why they just stopped. I really wish it wasn’t like this but i don’t know how to fix me? I don’t understand why my brain won’t let me be in a relationship without either self sabotaging it or just turning me off to the entire thing. I just don’t get how all my feelings could vanish.